Change....

This last week has been filled with changes. We no longer have a three year old, Talent's "sucker" went bye bye, and I started a new job. Each change brought many emotions for me. 

Let's start with having a 4 year old.....there are so many new things that Talent is doing. He is talking nonstop, has an incredible imagination, his personality is so overwhelmingly wonderful at times, and he is finally (with some bribing) trying some new foods. Watching him grow over the last 4 years has been the most amazing thing for me. I have been blessed to get to stay home with Talent since he was born. I've never left him for more than a few hours. He has rarely spent a night away from me. We have laughed, tickled, sang, danced, and made up (and read) many awesome stories. It has been the best job I've ever had in my life. 

Tonight as I lay here trying to turn off my mind, I can't help but feel a little bittersweet about this new job. It couldn't be more perfect for what I need. But the last 3 days I have gotten up, taken him to one of his grandparents, and gone to work. It feels so weird leaving him. All day I sit at a desk and enter information into my computer. I am learning so many things. Yet, I am constantly missing my boy and wondering what I'm missing and how he is doing. Is he being good? Is he safe? How are his allergies? Please God, don't let there be anything where he is that can hurt him. So many thoughts all day about my precious boy. I now have a very clear picture of how my husband must feel. The last three days of work have been wonderful. My boss is the kindest man. My coworker is such a sweet lady. But, I'm missing my kid. Tonight as I tucked him in to (my) bed, he said, "Mommy, I love you. I missed you as big as I love you!" I know, sweet baby. Mommy has missed you too. My sidekick, my best buddy.....days without hearing your tiny voice say "Mommy!" A hundred thousand times have been hard. Don't get me wrong, I am happy to have found this job. It will allow me to make my own hours, attend everything that T ever does once he is in school, and allow me to be at the school quickly when he needs me. I will be able to be with my husband and family when we have things going and not have to worry about my job. It is a big blessing having this job. I am happy to be helping my husband and helping provide for our family. I just miss my boy. Working moms and dads have it rough. I've only been to work three days...all around 7 hour days and I am already struggling. How do people do this? How does this get easier? I realize I'm an overly present parent. But, I love my kid. I enjoy my time with him. I love hearing his voice all day everyday. 

Between having a 4 year old and working, this week has been emotional. I know it will get easier. But for now, I'm going to hold my baby a little longer. Soak up all I can before that alarm goes off in the morning. Enjoy your kids. They are only little once and once this time is gone....you can't get it back. Make some memories. 

Four years is creeping up on me!

I'm It has been a while since I blogged. Truthfully, things around here haven't been all that busy. We've just been enjoying our time together. Seth and I have worked on a few projects together over the last month or so. We've made a headboard, built a fence, and put new recessed lighting on our patio. Oh and we we finally got rid of our attic birds. 

Talent is growing. He's talking so much and it is so much clearer. I still have to translate for people sometimes. But those times are less and less. I love seeing all of the things he is learning. 

We recently got him fish. He has been potty training and we promised when he made it 7 days without an accident he could have a fish tank with a couple of fish. He finally made it about a week ago. We bought him some neon tetras. He LOVES them. So much that he finally is back into his own bed at night. He wants to sleep with his fishies. It has been nice to have that little bit of our routine back. 

In a few days we will be celebrating Talent turning 4. I cannot believe how fast time is flying. He will go to kindergarten next year. We have decided not to start Pre K this year. I'm still a little unsure at times. But, I don't think he is going to suffer by not going to Pre K. I have so much to consider because of all of his food allergies. It's daunting at times. 

For T's 4th birthday we bought him an RC car from Walmart. Our parents went in on the gift with us. Since his birthday isn't long after Christmas, I like buying him one big gift that everyone can go in on for his birthday. It keeps me from having more inside toys to pick up. 

In a few weeks we will have his farmyard birthday party. I let Talent pick out his own theme this year. He loved the cupcakes we found on Pinterest for Jenny to make. He is excited. Every single you he sees on TV is something he "wants" or "needs" to have. That phase has been overwhelms. 

Takent's food allergies are pretty much the same. We think he may have outgrown his soy allergy. He hasn't reacted to the fish or fish food and that makes me wonder how that allergy is also. I am hoping to have him tested again before he starts school. 

Here are some more recent pictures and evidence of a budding personality. He's hilarious. He's super smart. And he has the kindest, most loving heart.