Memories.

One year ago at this moment we were getting wheeled to the OR for a c section. My labor had lasted as long as they were going to let it and I was beyond exhausted. I couldn't feel anything from my neck down and that was the scariest thing ever. I had a great team of people in that OR though. The man that did my epidural was amazing and so very sweet. His name was Andy. He came by the next day to check on me and to see Talent. Everyone else was really great too. And in exactly 56 minutes from right now, I heard my sweet baby boy cry for the first time and saw his slimy purple face. It is a memory I will never forget. Most moms will say it was a beautiful sight and they thought their kid was the most beautiful thing ever. Not me. I knew once he was cleaned up he would be. But he was covered in slime and gunk from being inside of me for so long. He did not look cute the first time I saw him. He looked purple and pissed. And slimy. But he was mine and I've never been so happy to see something so slimy in all my life.

I can remember Seth telling me he was proud of me. Words I don't know if I've ever heard come out of his mouth in the 9 years we've been together. And I can remember the first time my husband ever held our son. He had never held a baby before. Sharing that moment with him was special. I'm glad it was just us there. I remember I was so exhausted but I wanted to stay up and hold him. They took their sweet precious time bringing him to me. And I stayed up as long as I could and finally I had to call the nurse to come take him for a little while so I could get some sleep. He was so beautiful and sweet. He is such a blessing to me.

I'm sure I will post one more time before the end of his birthday. Here's another now & then pic.