Tubes....

Well tomorrow is the big surgery day. Talent is having tubes placed. I would love to say I'm not a nervous wreck but I'd be the biggest liar if I said that. I know the doctor is a great one. I know he is in capable hands. And I know my GOD is watching over him and taking care of him. But the mommy part of me is struggling with the fact that I have to let him go and let someone he doesn't know and I don't really know take him and take care of him. I'm one of those moms that never let strangers hold her baby. That was picky about people I do know holding him. I'm picky about who he stays with if he can't be with me. I don't like people I don't know touching him. I'm that mom. I'm protective. And knowing I have to trust someone else for his care even though it isn't for a very long time makes me so sick to my stomach. I'm so nervous. He doesn't like strangers. He will be upset because he won't be with me and I hate that. Maybe being as protective as I am is bad. I don't know. Times like this I second guess. I think I do a good job as a parent. He's happy and healthy. He is growing up and learning so much. I am just a silent wreck this week trying to project a sense of calm to everyone around me. So if you read this, say a prayer for us tomorrow. His surgery is at 7:30. We have to be there at 6:45. Pray for peace. Pray that things go well with the tubes.