My New Found Love: Two years ago.....

Two years ago at this moment I was laying in a hospital bed crying. The doctor had just come in and was telling me they were going to give me one more dose of Pitocin to see if they could get Talent to come on out without doing a cesarean. I had been in that hospital bed since 3:30 am. I was tired, hungry, and thirsty. I hadn't had anything to drink since they had admitted me. I hadn't had anything to eat since the day before at dinner. And I had only been asleep a few hours before my water broke and I had to go to the hospital. I was worn smooth out. The doctor came back in and told me that she was going to check me and if my uterus was still not cooperating they were going to call the surgical team back in and go ahead with the C-section. At that point I was beyond ready for a C-section. I never thought I would want one but, I was just exhausted. They started kicking people out of my room. They started getting things for Seth to wear into the OR. They took all of my jewelry off. They had the guy that did my epidural come in and check on me. He was going to have to give me more meds. Finally, we were getting somewhere. They wheeled me back to the OR, I was suddenly numb from the neck down. And I was still so sick....nine long months of morning sickness, and I was sick the whole time I was in labor, including the C-section.

At 12:58 am, I heard the first sound of my child. I shed a few tears. It was one of the most amazing sounds I've ever heard in my life. You know, you carry this life inside of your own body for nine months. You protect it from the world around you. You feel it's every move. You dream about finally seeing it. You don't know what you reaction will be. I never dreamed I would cry. I just was so overcome with happiness that he was finally here. I could finally hold him in my arms. Finally I could kiss his little face. It was overwhelming. Seth was able to go with them when they took him to be cleaned up and foot printed and hand printed and all of that stuff. He took some pictures of him. Our parents got to see him through the glass. Meanwhile, I was still being put back together. I thank God for the anesthesiologist. I was so sick and he was so kind. He wiped my face, held a bucket, and my hair. He was just the kindest man. After I was all stitched up, they took me to my room.

My Mom, Mammaw, & Mother in Law were waiting in the room with Seth. It took them a while to bring Talent to me. But when they finally did, my heart was just overflowing. He was beautiful. He was perfect. I had carried this child for nine long months inside my body. And to be able to finally hold him in my arms was a feeling I can't quite describe. Still to this day, nothing makes my heart feel quite like holding that boy does.

Two years has seemed to fly by. Talent has grown and changed so much. I'm so proud of him. He is the silliest and most fun little boy. He's stubborn and so strong willed. At times that makes me a little crazy. But, one of these days I know I will be thankful that he has those qualities. It's what kept me out of trouble when I was a teenager. I am hoping it does the same for him. He is just the most amazing thing.

Being a mom for the last two years has been a wild ride. There have been trips to the doctor for fevers that were higher than I was comfortable with, ear infections, tubes put in his ears, allergy testing, allergy scares resulting in hives or trouble breathing, RSV, bumps & bruises, and so much more. He's made me laugh with his crazy antics. Reminded me that not everything is so serious. Taught me so much about myself. Talent is a great kid. I'm so proud to be his Mom. The last two years have been some of the best years of my life. I look forward to seeing what the future holds for him. I know he's a smart boy. I think he has a great future ahead.